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Dear Daddy
I hate you
You make me hate you
I want to say I love you
But you hurt me
You hit me
I think about Killing you
Daddy I've wanted to hurt you too
I've wanted to slit your throat
And put bullets through you
And bash you with things
Like baseball bats, bricks...
Your tools, and smash your head in the wall...
Daddy you hit me and I want to scream at you
I want to say I love you but...
Inside I really hate you...
You not only physically abuse me
But you verbally abuse us all...
You say "You kids are the only reason your mother and I are still together.."
And "Here I was thinking my children love me, nice to be wrong in the end.."
And when you threaten to hit me if I speak...Or "say one word"
And then call me to your room at night because I didn't hug you goodnight...
Or because I didn't come in your room to tell you goodnight and I love you.
Daddy, I hate you...
And you make me feel bad...
Daddy, I really want to kill you...
To see your blood on my hands...
To smear it across the walls...
To wrap your body up and bury you so you can't hurt us...
Daddy... I try to be your little girl...And I try to love you...
But you make me want to murder you...
I yell at you and do things bad when you want to hurt my siblings...
So you will hurt me instead...
Yeah, you blame us for stuff...
But I want to be hit instead of them...
Daddy... Why do I want to kill you?
Because you hurt us...
And you hurt Mommy...
My older sister's 16th B-day...
You beat her...
Why did you do that?
Do you secretly hate us too?
You screamed you hated me..
And told my I wasn't your daughter anymore...
That I wasn't your little girl...
And you told me to leave...
When I tried you told me I couldn't...
And you beat me...
And when you said you hated me...
I looked in your eyes...
And saw no trace of a lie...
But later you said you were lying when you screamed it at me..
Daddy, do you even love Mommy?
Daddy... I HATE YOU!

-Dark_Spinning_Fairy-

Behtany.....I understand this from first person veiw...Just remember you have many more people who love you...

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person... or does it make me a murderer because I think like one...?Am I insane?

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Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person... or does it make me a murderer because I think like one...?Am I insane?

"...no one can control their own thoughts, and the madness is in thinking that one somehow can, so no, the crime is only in the action, where your thoughts are your only freedom and yours alone, simply the "journey to self" rides on the back of a base animal here, part demon part angel but it's still you all the same..." mentioned the goblin, repeating "...oh no, in society one cannot have freedom, but within oneself one can hold to secrecy if one is strong enough that is..."

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Bethany..You will never be insane,crazy,bad person. I think you are a wonderful girl....Alot of people have thought of killing their perents....Never think of your self of a bad person....If you do I will hunt you down and tell you are not until you get that your not....

ILY Beth